10 Things I want to do before I die (for now)

1. Go diving in the prettiest coral reefs and not die like how Steve Irwin did.

2. Feed a bottle of milk to a tiger cub.

3. Have shitloads of money.

4. Punch someone in the face (or any physical assault that gives equal gratification).

5. Learn a new language.

6. Spend the aforementioned shitloads of money on my family and good shoes.

7. Cook delicious food so that my future husband won't leave me.

8. Join the Amazing Race with my brother.

9. Eat deep dish pizza in San Francisco.

10. Spend a day with Bear Grylls. Just one day.

If that's what it takes

then go ahead.

No I didn't become famous and forgot about you. I just slept through August.

So I tried a few new things lately. Allow me to brag about it.

My friends and I ate baguettes for a week. That's gotta be some district level record.

I finally got around to try painting acrylic on canvas. My first artwork is sitting somewhere where the number of viewers have reached a staggering number of 2.

Then there's the henna drawing. Sold my skills for RM3 a piece during the Mid Autumn Festival and people were willing to give me money. I just hope they do not suffer from G6PD deficiency.

Also this chicken hates his job.

I am a hoarder

for all the right reasons.

So I was going through some of my old stuff that were still in boxes when I moved to Sarawak. I told myself that I needed to get rid of some things, you know, de-clutter the house.

My buku catatan pengawas from when I was in form 2. Sorry Alan Chai I think I got you punished or something.

Saya hendak jadi saintis bila saya besar. Haha what was that.

This was my very first trophy. Won it when I was 7 I think, during a fashion show competition. Mum's idea. I was smokin in that Kiko dress and purple make up.

My kemahiran hidup project. The boys got to do some cool looking book racks, and all we got to do was a box.

Dirty notes from friends.

Basically, all I ended up doing was raid through every box and put everything back where they came from.

Well hello.

I'm back home now, to be the full time daughter and sister. My parents feed me so much I think we just made up a whole new meal that is in between breakfast and brunch, or something in between dinner and supper. My brother Justin is back too, so I no longer need the internet.

Before this I made a trip to Tawau. Things have changed ever since we moved, but the good food still remains. God bless Hing Lee sang nyuk mian.

And before this, I was sitting for my year 3 finals. I must say it wasn't the most dreadful exam I've had, but for some reason it got me to a point where I can now fit into pants that I wore when I was 15. I'm now 22 (not 25).

So back to the subject of the giant desert centipede, it has about 40 pairs of legs, the previous pair shorter than the one after to prevent it from falling. They also have a black coloured head and tail as part of their defense mechanism to confuse their predators. Cool eh?

Finals next week

and I'm sick. Can't you tell?

Here are the many interesting things that happen when I'm sick.

1. A study break becomes a break.

2. I get to watch the colour of my nasal discharge turn the full yellow spectrum.

3. Sent a throat lozenge flying out of my mouth when I sneezed and never found it again.

4. Eat really bland food when you're in the middle of a pms and all you want is to be useless and dramatic and fat. When you're sick you're just useless.

My Medicine lecture notes says untreated common cold lasts for 7 days, if treated it just lasts one week. If everybody knew this then doctors would be out of business. Then again, I don't think that statement is entirely correct.

Tell me something you know to be true.

This is a popsicle. Yup so now kids can lie to their mums that they've eaten their fruits. I guess this is the new marketing strategy to make ice confectionery more appealing. Never buying it again.

The telly was a really big distraction at ke ke and dao zhuo's housewarming. Ever since I started living in a hostel, I've only watched 30 days worth of tv in a year. So we were all glued to it for 2 hours, nevermind that the show was a really outdated movie about a witch that spits snakes. This new tv that my dad got back home, yeah still can't operate the remote.

This, I can't even talk about. Congratulations Timmy the aeronautical engineer!

I recently issued my first partial denture. Felt good to give someone a better smile(though i personally felt she had a better smile without teeth). Felt even better when she was happy to wear it.

This gold medal is mine. 22 years of not knowing how a basketball looks like and I made the faculty team. Nevermind that I only played a little, I took it very seriously. I pissed off an IMU girl with my god-like blocking skills.

Inflammed, or already in flames?

To break the monotony of the day I'd go jog a little, only to walk around in circles around the track. Listening to the same songs I've had in my ipod for the past 6 months. But quite frankly that's not how just today went, it feels like I've been at this for as long as I can remember.

Where do I go now?

I have too big an ego to admit that I am just as selfish as I portray others to be. I could never be the bigger person although I tell you I'm okay with it. And even if I wasn't you'd think I'd be. Because I made you believe that this time, it'll be different. Together, we'd be different.

Somebody warned me that I'd regret. I don't. Because if I did I wouldn't miss you. Not in this ridiculous amount, not this painful.

But right now, I am just angry. Angry that I continue to hurt you even when there's nothing wrong to begin with. Enraged because I didn't learn from my mistakes.

But right now, more than anything else in the world, I'd want you to tell me it'll be okay.