Caught off guard.

Estranged as we may now be, we used to be the best of friends. That could probably remain, but I chose not to. So be angry at me. I will let you.

I have outgrown everything that was in the past, and I'm sorry it took you a much longer time to feel free again. Finding someone else to love first doesn't mean I win. You won, because you loved me longer. But please don't make me feel guilty for feeling happy once again.

Nevertheless, you were once an amazing person to me, and I wish you all the happiness that you deserve.

Do what you need to do to forget. I never did, because some memories are worth keeping.

So be angry at me, I will let you.

So many things to say to you.

Fortunately, I'm not a bitch. So lucky you.

Life has been giving me a good share of ups and downs lately. But nothing I can't fix!

But what I really want to talk about today is movies that I've watched recently.

1. Julie & Julia

It is enjoyable to watch Meryl Streep, as always. She makes Julia Child such a lovable character, and her kitchen in the 1950s makes me wanna have a kitchen like that. As for Amy Adams and her character Julie Powell, it makes you wonder if you too are THAT obsessed with your blog.

2. Pulp Fiction

I think the best part of this movie is the dialogue. Here's one:

[Jules, Vincent and Jimmie are drinking coffee in Jimmie's kitchen]

Jules: Mmmm! Goddamn, Jimmie! This is some serious gourmet shit! Usually, me and Vince would be happy with some freeze-dried Taster's Choice right, but he springs this serious GOURMET shit on us! What flavor is this?
Jimmie: Knock it off, Julie.
Jules: [pause] What?
Jimmie: I don't need you to tell me how fucking good my coffee is, okay? I'm the one who buys it. I know how good it is. When Bonnie goes shopping she buys SHIT. I buy the gourmet expensive stuff because when I drink it I want to taste it. But you know what's on my mind right now? It AIN'T the coffee in my kitchen, it's the dead nigger in my garage.
Jules: Oh, Jimmie, don't even worry about that...
Jimmie: [interupting] No, No, No, No, let me ask you a question. When you came pulling in here, did you notice a sign out in front of my house that said "Dead Nigger Storage"?
Jules: Jimmie, you know I ain't seen no...
Jimmie: [cutting him off again; getting angry] Did you notice a sign out in front of my house that said "Dead Nigger Storage"?
Jules: [pause] No. I didn't.
Jimmie: You know WHY you didn't see that sign?
Jules: Why?
Jimmie: 'Cause it ain't there, 'cause storing dead niggers ain't my fucking business, that's why!

3. Larry Crowne

Funny and inspiring, but quite predictable towards the end.

That's all for now, I'm hungry.

Very happy inside.

Sorry I've been gone so long, been busy sitting like a boss.

But really, I was preoccupied with:

1) Baby

2) Taking pictures of Shan

3) Reading the funnies from the Oral Surgery textbook

Time well spent.

10 Things I want to do before I die (for now)

1. Go diving in the prettiest coral reefs and not die like how Steve Irwin did.

2. Feed a bottle of milk to a tiger cub.

3. Have shitloads of money.

4. Punch someone in the face (or any physical assault that gives equal gratification).

5. Learn a new language.

6. Spend the aforementioned shitloads of money on my family and good shoes.

7. Cook delicious food so that my future husband won't leave me.

8. Join the Amazing Race with my brother.

9. Eat deep dish pizza in San Francisco.

10. Spend a day with Bear Grylls. Just one day.

If that's what it takes

then go ahead.

No I didn't become famous and forgot about you. I just slept through August.

So I tried a few new things lately. Allow me to brag about it.

My friends and I ate baguettes for a week. That's gotta be some district level record.

I finally got around to try painting acrylic on canvas. My first artwork is sitting somewhere where the number of viewers have reached a staggering number of 2.

Then there's the henna drawing. Sold my skills for RM3 a piece during the Mid Autumn Festival and people were willing to give me money. I just hope they do not suffer from G6PD deficiency.

Also this chicken hates his job.

I am a hoarder

for all the right reasons.

So I was going through some of my old stuff that were still in boxes when I moved to Sarawak. I told myself that I needed to get rid of some things, you know, de-clutter the house.

My buku catatan pengawas from when I was in form 2. Sorry Alan Chai I think I got you punished or something.

Saya hendak jadi saintis bila saya besar. Haha what was that.

This was my very first trophy. Won it when I was 7 I think, during a fashion show competition. Mum's idea. I was smokin in that Kiko dress and purple make up.

My kemahiran hidup project. The boys got to do some cool looking book racks, and all we got to do was a box.

Dirty notes from friends.

Basically, all I ended up doing was raid through every box and put everything back where they came from.

Well hello.

I'm back home now, to be the full time daughter and sister. My parents feed me so much I think we just made up a whole new meal that is in between breakfast and brunch, or something in between dinner and supper. My brother Justin is back too, so I no longer need the internet.

Before this I made a trip to Tawau. Things have changed ever since we moved, but the good food still remains. God bless Hing Lee sang nyuk mian.

And before this, I was sitting for my year 3 finals. I must say it wasn't the most dreadful exam I've had, but for some reason it got me to a point where I can now fit into pants that I wore when I was 15. I'm now 22 (not 25).

So back to the subject of the giant desert centipede, it has about 40 pairs of legs, the previous pair shorter than the one after to prevent it from falling. They also have a black coloured head and tail as part of their defense mechanism to confuse their predators. Cool eh?