Fear

Where does it go from here?



The things I never say are the ones that I want to tell you the most.



Like how I teared up during a lecture on respiratory diseases. How much I don't want the inevitable to happen. How much I want to get to know you. And how much time is there left if you don't quit smoking.



Or how you have no idea that you teach me so much. And that I look to you more than you realize.



Or how sorry I am to avoid conversations, from all the unresolved issues. Issue, actually.
Because I love you too much as a friend. I know that's what you would say.