chocolate covered canine

So many things to say to you.

2012-02-07T06:06:00.000-08:00

Fortunately, I'm not a bitch. So lucky you.

Life has been giving me a good share of ups and downs lately. But nothing I can't fix!

But what I really want to talk about today is movies that I've watched recently.

1. Julie & Julia

It is enjoyable to watch Meryl Streep, as always. She makes Julia Child such a lovable character, and her kitchen in the 1950s makes me wanna have a kitchen like that. As for Amy Adams and her character Julie Powell, it makes you wonder if you too are THAT obsessed with your blog.

2. Pulp Fiction

I think the best part of this movie is the dialogue. Here's one:

[Jules, Vincent and Jimmie are drinking coffee in Jimmie's kitchen]

Jules: Mmmm! Goddamn, Jimmie! This is some serious gourmet shit! Usually, me and Vince would be happy with some freeze-dried Taster's Choice right, but he springs this serious GOURMET shit on us! What flavor is this?
Jimmie: Knock it off, Julie.
Jules: [pause] What?
Jimmie: I don't need you to tell me how fucking good my coffee is, okay? I'm the one who buys it. I know how good it is. When Bonnie goes shopping she buys SHIT. I buy the gourmet expensive stuff because when I drink it I want to taste it. But you know what's on my mind right now? It AIN'T the coffee in my kitchen, it's the dead nigger in my garage.
Jules: Oh, Jimmie, don't even worry about that...
Jimmie: [interupting] No, No, No, No, let me ask you a question. When you came pulling in here, did you notice a sign out in front of my house that said "Dead Nigger Storage"?
Jules: Jimmie, you know I ain't seen no...
Jimmie: [cutting him off again; getting angry] Did you notice a sign out in front of my house that said "Dead Nigger Storage"?
Jules: [pause] No. I didn't.
Jimmie: You know WHY you didn't see that sign?
Jules: Why?
Jimmie: 'Cause it ain't there, 'cause storing dead niggers ain't my fucking business, that's why!

3. Larry Crowne

Funny and inspiring, but quite predictable towards the end.

That's all for now, I'm hungry.

Very happy inside.

2012-01-17T09:50:00.001-08:00

Sorry I've been gone so long, been busy sitting like a boss.

But really, I was preoccupied with:

1) Baby

2) Taking pictures of Shan

3) Reading the funnies from the Oral Surgery textbook

Time well spent.

10 Things I want to do before I die (for now)

2011-12-03T06:43:00.000-08:00

1. Go diving in the prettiest coral reefs and not die like how Steve Irwin did.

2. Feed a bottle of milk to a tiger cub.

3. Have shitloads of money.

4. Punch someone in the face (or any physical assault that gives equal gratification).

5. Learn a new language.

6. Spend the aforementioned shitloads of money on my family and good shoes.

7. Cook delicious food so that my future husband won't leave me.

8. Join the Amazing Race with my brother.

9. Eat deep dish pizza in San Francisco.

10. Spend a day with Bear Grylls. Just one day.

If that's what it takes

2011-09-24T00:16:00.000-07:00

then go ahead.

No I didn't become famous and forgot about you. I just slept through August.

So I tried a few new things lately. Allow me to brag about it.

My friends and I ate baguettes for a week. That's gotta be some district level record.

I finally got around to try painting acrylic on canvas. My first artwork is sitting somewhere where the number of viewers have reached a staggering number of 2.

Then there's the henna drawing. Sold my skills for RM3 a piece during the Mid Autumn Festival and people were willing to give me money. I just hope they do not suffer from G6PD deficiency.

Also this chicken hates his job.

I am a hoarder

2011-07-31T01:10:00.000-07:00

for all the right reasons.

So I was going through some of my old stuff that were still in boxes when I moved to Sarawak. I told myself that I needed to get rid of some things, you know, de-clutter the house.

My buku catatan pengawas from when I was in form 2. Sorry Alan Chai I think I got you punished or something.

Saya hendak jadi saintis bila saya besar. Haha what was that.

This was my very first trophy. Won it when I was 7 I think, during a fashion show competition. Mum's idea. I was smokin in that Kiko dress and purple make up.

My kemahiran hidup project. The boys got to do some cool looking book racks, and all we got to do was a box.

Dirty notes from friends.

Basically, all I ended up doing was raid through every box and put everything back where they came from.

Well hello.

2011-07-15T07:12:00.000-07:00

I'm back home now, to be the full time daughter and sister. My parents feed me so much I think we just made up a whole new meal that is in between breakfast and brunch, or something in between dinner and supper. My brother Justin is back too, so I no longer need the internet.

Before this I made a trip to Tawau. Things have changed ever since we moved, but the good food still remains. God bless Hing Lee sang nyuk mian.

And before this, I was sitting for my year 3 finals. I must say it wasn't the most dreadful exam I've had, but for some reason it got me to a point where I can now fit into pants that I wore when I was 15. I'm now 22 (not 25).

So back to the subject of the giant desert centipede, it has about 40 pairs of legs, the previous pair shorter than the one after to prevent it from falling. They also have a black coloured head and tail as part of their defense mechanism to confuse their predators. Cool eh?

Finals next week

2011-06-12T05:29:00.000-07:00

and I'm sick. Can't you tell?

Here are the many interesting things that happen when I'm sick.

1. A study break becomes a break.

2. I get to watch the colour of my nasal discharge turn the full yellow spectrum.

3. Sent a throat lozenge flying out of my mouth when I sneezed and never found it again.

4. Eat really bland food when you're in the middle of a pms and all you want is to be useless and dramatic and fat. When you're sick you're just useless.

My Medicine lecture notes says untreated common cold lasts for 7 days, if treated it just lasts one week. If everybody knew this then doctors would be out of business. Then again, I don't think that statement is entirely correct.

Tell me something you know to be true.

2011-05-29T07:02:00.000-07:00

This is a popsicle. Yup so now kids can lie to their mums that they've eaten their fruits. I guess this is the new marketing strategy to make ice confectionery more appealing. Never buying it again.

The telly was a really big distraction at ke ke and dao zhuo's housewarming. Ever since I started living in a hostel, I've only watched 30 days worth of tv in a year. So we were all glued to it for 2 hours, nevermind that the show was a really outdated movie about a witch that spits snakes. This new tv that my dad got back home, yeah still can't operate the remote.

This, I can't even talk about. Congratulations Timmy the aeronautical engineer!

I recently issued my first partial denture. Felt good to give someone a better smile(though i personally felt she had a better smile without teeth). Felt even better when she was happy to wear it.

This gold medal is mine. 22 years of not knowing how a basketball looks like and I made the faculty team. Nevermind that I only played a little, I took it very seriously. I pissed off an IMU girl with my god-like blocking skills.

Inflammed, or already in flames?

2011-05-15T09:56:00.001-07:00

To break the monotony of the day I'd go jog a little, only to walk around in circles around the track. Listening to the same songs I've had in my ipod for the past 6 months. But quite frankly that's not how just today went, it feels like I've been at this for as long as I can remember.

Where do I go now?

I have too big an ego to admit that I am just as selfish as I portray others to be. I could never be the bigger person although I tell you I'm okay with it. And even if I wasn't you'd think I'd be. Because I made you believe that this time, it'll be different. Together, we'd be different.

Somebody warned me that I'd regret. I don't. Because if I did I wouldn't miss you. Not in this ridiculous amount, not this painful.

But right now, I am just angry. Angry that I continue to hurt you even when there's nothing wrong to begin with. Enraged because I didn't learn from my mistakes.

But right now, more than anything else in the world, I'd want you to tell me it'll be okay.

Sometimes i wonder if you know.

2011-05-06T05:28:00.000-07:00

In movies, when the scar faced somebody calls the father to ask a ransom for his hot daughter, they'd call and just say where and when to meet. They also say it really fast because they wouldn't want the FBI to trace them.

And normally this place is just somewhere really obvious. An abandoned warehouse. Or the 2nd dustbin opposite the public toilet across the building with a door near the sea. Give it to the penguin.

It's never really just: put the money at the Ramli burger stall. That would be a little difficult to comprehend.

That's just about as off putting as when you've watched 541 episodes of cantonese drama that leads to the ultimate scene where the father of the child is finally revealed. Thanks to bad timing the subtitle appears first and you get to find out even before the child in the scene knows.

Just among the many worldly issues that matter to me.

Hello marshmallow

2011-04-06T22:32:00.000-07:00

It occurred to me that people can roughly deduce your state of origin by judging on what plastic bags you have. And I...have watched way too much of The Big Bang Theory for my own good.

For example, if you carry a Pacific Ngiu Kee plastic bag you are from east Malaysia. An Ikea shopping bag suggests that you were in KL. And a Kedai Runcit Al Amin plastic bag tells us you shop in Beaufort. Like who doesn't know that right?

Then again, I remember buying vegetables in Kundasang( a very small town at the foot of Mount Kinabalu) and they put my vegetables in a Walmart bag.

***

So now that I'm 22, I will look closer to my... perceived age? (Rather than my actual age). Saves the embarrassment of strangers who think I'm 25 when I am actually just a 3rd year dental student.

Damn I need a boob job.

Nevertheless, I had a great birthday. There was cake, cards, presents and a custom made wallpaper.

And dinner at this beautiful place. I haven't taken a picture of you in a long time =)

let love last.

2011-03-28T07:30:00.000-07:00

So I've watched Rebecca Black and hey, she's good to bring up during awkward silences on a date. Talking about the weather is so 2000 and late. Get with the programme!

And so you think after watching RB, Justin Bieber is much better. I can't wait for his movie(though I might have to watch it alone=.=) Andy says it's in 3D, so his hair flip must be to die for. Never say never to anything, not even drugs!

Sujin and I spent 3 hours cleaning up the living room and pantry, and all I have to say is that women, or maybe just us, are hoarders. Because every broken plastic container has feelings. Aww. We threw half the stuff out and recycled them for 6 bucks. That's just cold, i know.

***

Going to the SPCA again was therapeutic. The dogs that I saw from my last visit weren't there anymore, they went home.

This golden Cocker Spaniel is 6 years old and his previous owner passed away. It's really a shame I couldn't adopt him. So I gave it a hug instead.

Geez lighten up already.

2011-03-24T03:32:00.000-07:00

This is a prairie dog. It isn't actually a dog, it just barks like one. My life is now complete because I've seen an actual one, in a pet store in Penang. I was pretty star struck because it's not often you get to see something on tv in real life. Like Lee Chong Wei or Amy Search.

Jeannette just compared a rodent to the world's number one badminton player.

So there I was, looking through the glass chamber going, WOAH! PRAIRIE DOG!

***

It's irritating how easily bothered I get when things go wrong. It's also irritating that everything matters to me.

Life might be easier if I take everything easy, but I guess, it might not be as meaningful.

So thank you, for not giving up on me. I love you for that.

Currently feeling...

2011-03-17T09:01:00.000-07:00

blue and tangled.

Maybe I do deserve better.

2011-03-12T05:21:00.000-08:00

I have hit an unprecedented new low.

I no longer have an opinion. Or at least one that matters to people.

I keep apologizing and keep getting apologies it's starting to look like Beauty and The Beast II. Makes me think that all I do is a huge mistake.

So is that movie.

We pick up right where we left off

2011-02-26T03:18:00.000-08:00

like we never missed a thing.

That's not true now, isn't it?

Every now and then people give me reason to doubt myself. I'd brush it off if I could, but somehow I choose to believe that there's some truth to it. Maybe deep down, I want to believe.

That's when they win, when they unconsciously manage to bring me down.

And that's when I lose, the faith in people that never did disappoint.

All because I choose to remember what hurts the most.

Here's some stuff that REALLY matters.

2011-02-15T05:34:00.000-08:00

Facebook really knows how to bring you down sometimes. I felt like a total failure because I've not uploaded any pictures lately (oh her life is not very eventful, hence I WIN!!!).

A lot of people started uploading pictures of what they did for valentine's day. If you celebrated, you uploaded shit. If you didn't, you're either single or just half a pathetic couple.

What is with this constant obsession of telling the world about everything that we do?

Sure events of monumental significance (my graduation, the birth of my bastard child, my new set of jugs) are worth documenting and published on Facebook.

But I don't see how telling the Facebook community how pretty you look with your well angulated self shots 167 times over does anything. I may have mentioned this before but hey, a point needs to be emphasized over a few entries to really hit it.

I wouldn't say I'm not guilty of things like that. At least I don't overdo it. So thank me for not telling you my armpits stink or that my new sanitary pads are REALLY good at absorbing blood.

You got me right here

2011-01-28T03:36:00.000-08:00

combustible.

I believe that using a new bottle of shampoo makes your hair more fabulous. Even if it's the same kind that I've been using ever since I had hair.

But what I really believe in is that if you take a plate from the middle of a stack of plates, chances are that plate that you've so wisely chose is significantly cleaner than the others.

Even better, when we walk into a new house and wonder how wide is this place and start walking in a straight line. Because really, your foot and my foot are all just 1 foot in length. Oh yes that's how they all build houses.

Speaking of the sizes of our feet, I went in to this place to try on a shoe. So I say, "could I have a size 9?" From here, only three things can happen.

They get me a size 9.

They think I'm stupid and says, "are you sure miss?"

They don't have size 9 and suggests a size 8. Now I think they're stupid.

the sun's in my heart

2011-01-19T06:38:00.000-08:00

Some things are not meant to be contained.

Like joy. Sheer childlike joy.

A little late, but Happy 2011.

Jane. Tarzan.

2010-12-30T01:38:00.000-08:00

It's hard to grow up knowing that most of the best things in life happen during your carefree lives of childhood and adolescence.

We've grown so much, you especially. I've stopped growing long ago, it's all downhill from now.

The receding gums. Sagging in places you don't want to know.

I guess the best part of us is that after all the frequent uprooting, dead guinea pigs and successful chick hatchings, we're still the same at heart.

It is surprisingly pathetic how homesick I have been lately. That why I'm thankful that I have you. So I'll never lose the true feeling of being home, and that is the one thing I hope to always keep.

10 years ago you wanted a yo-yo.

Now you're telling me you're going to the gym to "keep in shape".

Haha.

Just don't tell me 10 years from now that you're keeping a mistress.

Happy Birthday Justin.

Lots of love!

Feeling a little gassy today.

2010-12-27T05:55:00.000-08:00

For someone whose favorite colour isn't pink, I've got a lot of pink going on here.

My laptop speakers aren't working, I take it as a sign that I shouldn't be spending so much time watching movies and instead study. But when it gets too quiet I start synchronizing the music from my phone to its music video on youtube. Justin Bieber sounds better muted by the way.

Lately people don't say hi to me anymore. Apparently the most polite way to greet someone is by shouting "OMG what happened to your face?!" frantically. I get it buddy save your enthusiasm for when I grow a goatee.

So in order to fix my pimple ridden face I've consulted a local shaman. So be nice and just tell me I look pretty. Or else.

I know you're concerned. I am too. Hence the medication and healthy diet. And my no chocolate oath. Yes an oath.

Vanity frustrations aside, does it bother you that you can't really use all the keys that are on your keyboard? Unless you illustrate your descriptions ONLY with Asian emoticons.

I've never used this

or this

and

and dare I say I haven't got a flippin clue what a num lock is.

Save the earth

2010-12-07T05:13:00.000-08:00

it's the only planet with chocolate.

Life's too hot for me to handle right now, hence the decrease in number of entries.

I have to save cats that get stranded at the 4th floor of the hostel building, God knows how he got there.

Dental dinner was just over few weeks back. Chose to wore a cheongsam because it looked very vespertinal. I thought that the biggest irony of it all was that someone as inadequately Chinese as me would wear a cheongsam.

Apart from that there are clinic duties. I've been scaling and filling peoples' teeth. I just hope they don't fall out, the tooth and the filling.
I'll also take it as a good sign that my patient wanted to ask me out for tea after his treatment.

In the spirit of improvement, captain PCG also upgraded our stunts for cheerleading, making us highly sought after stuntmen and women. Don't try any stunts unless you have baby mats.

But the most important point of this entry is, Sue Sylvester wears dentures.

Sleeptyping.

2010-11-27T11:29:00.000-08:00

Here's why I bring my camera everywhere I go.

It isn't everyday that no.5 from the winning basketball team gets a wedgie.

Sometimes I play with this cat, and she'd playfully purr and roll around. Sometimes I just flip the trash can lid. I've done that 8 times so far. Wonder how many times more can she fly off the building in a projectile motion.

But hey I'm not always that mean.

I feed her.

I like giraffes.

2010-11-05T10:33:00.000-07:00

I do this thing where I watch National Geographic to compensate the hours I spend watching the new Disney crap(Hannah Montana is now orange) and Cougar Town.

And so I spent a solid hour learning about sharks and how they are built for the kill.

There's the Great White Shark. They have a grey top which makes them hard to see from the surface of the water, and a white belly so it kind of matches the sun rays coming from the sea. To protect their eyes they roll them back when fighting or hunting for prey.

The Angel Shark. It's somewhere in there.

The Blue Shark. Learning about its anatomy is like reading Tim's report on his wind tunnel project and what reduces drag and resistance.

The Whale Shark can grow up to be longer than a 50 seat bus.

The White Tip Shark has jagged teeth and deep cusps to hook on to its prey.

and this is some prehistoric shark which I thought was some photoshop bullcrap but turned out to be real.

Did you know sharks do not have bone? Just cartilage. That's why they are good swimmers.

The only sharks I like are the ones with an Australian accent. They're vegetarian.

Sigh if only I had spent my entire high school life watching stuff like that on Astro I'd score that 17 A's in SPM. Or if I corrected my answers using an Exam Grade Stabilo eraser.
Not trying to make fun of anybody here.

You found the little girl in me

2010-11-04T01:00:00.001-07:00

Too bad I still look 25.

I don't remember bathing yesterday. But I must have, my hair still smells good. And I'm not wearing my Monday undies. It's Thursday.

I worry about things like if the configuration of a bouquet of flowers follow the Fibonacci sequence. Or whether there are exactly 10 chocolate chips in all my cupcakes. Tell me I'm not crazy.

And tell me you're okay.

Fear

2010-10-16T03:18:00.000-07:00

Where does it go from here?

The things I never say are the ones that I want to tell you the most.

Like how I teared up during a lecture on respiratory diseases. How much I don't want the inevitable to happen. How much I want to get to know you. And how much time is there left if you don't quit smoking.

Or how you have no idea that you teach me so much. And that I look to you more than you realize.

Or how sorry I am to avoid conversations, from all the unresolved issues. Issue, actually.
Because I love you too much as a friend. I know that's what you would say.

Drive slow

2010-10-01T06:51:00.000-07:00

till we run out of road.

Setting my clock 20 minutes faster used to be my way of being punctual. Until I realize the flaw of it all. I always knew I still had 20 minutes.
Fail much.

I woke up feeling mellow today, wanting nothing but pancakes and a golden retriever. Yeah, a puppy would be awesome right now.
Or maybe just someone to eat french toast with.

It is days like these that I wish I could throw it all away (whatever it is that I have, not much.) go to a pretty beach and build a house out of drift wood. Lay in the sand. Shit in the sea.

I should remove my ovaries. Or anything that makes me feel like a woman.

Minus the pain

2010-09-27T09:17:00.000-07:00

No LA needed.

I was about to blog about how I am a firm believer that elevator buttons should be pressed constantly so that it gets there faster. Once couldn't possibly be enough.

But then I received a phone call.

No one I cared about died. Nor did I win Miss Nicaragua/Universe 2010.

How can you stand watching your own blood wandering aimlessly through life when everyone else is slowly finding their place in this world? Don't you see that living life isn't some competition?

I find little things in life like watching Mean Girls with my roommate 35 times over as some form of joy. I feel excited at the thought of having to finally go to class because I've not seen some of my classmates for a long time. I like to watch my dad fall asleep on the couch while I steal the remote control lying on his belly.

He sees nothing. He doesn't see anything remotely close to the warmth of hot chocolate on a rainy day. Because you caged him.

Forget about acquiring status and money, let him breathe. Learn. Let him go on a date, chaperoned.

Today I accomplished something, nothing colossal. But having that feeling made me realize how much he wants to feel the same too.

I hope you see that.

Don't do this to me.

2010-09-16T23:22:00.000-07:00

We're just at the wrong place.
At the wrong time.
All the time.

Today I found friends on facebook that I didn't know I had. Explains why I have 749 friends, which does not make sense at all.

Because in my heart and mind, I have an estimated 30, maybe 40 friends that I keep in touch on a regular basis. The rest are hi bye friends, so...how's the weather friends, eye candy friends, long time no see! then nothing else to talk about friends, we love each other on the outside but deep down we want to castrate them friends, you name it.

You know what else facebook does? It makes you forget birthdays. It's like when we started using cellphones we forget phone numbers. If your cellphone number has a cool jingle to it, fine I can manage. I can remember 7552525 though I've never had Pizza Hut where I lived. But if it's really random numbers like 0168256341. Macam susah.

But with 700 over friends and counting, I suppose I need something to remind me about birthdays. I can't keep track, I have better things to do.

Like playing Farmville. And taking love quizzes. And reading about what God wants me to know on this day, on facebook.

I gotta stop being so sarcastic.

Icing on your nose

2010-09-13T06:42:00.000-07:00

The breeze on my face.

When I entered AIMST for my degree they issued me a new ID. I was ready to throw away my old one. But when I got my new ID, I saw that they reused my old picture. Bummer.

This ID has been a constant reminder of how long I've been here. 3 years. I've gone from hardworking foundation student to uhm, dental student. My relatives think I can go around pulling teeth because it seemed like I've been in here too long they must think I've been repeating this course 6 times over.

It may have been 3 years but I don't feel it being an agonizing pain in the prostate. Though this place did give me high cholesterol.

I don't understand why chicken rice balls are famous. I find it rather overrated. Maybe people are attracted to spherical objects. Football. Boobs.
I find rolling zinc oxide eugenol into balls very comforting.
So does rolling the gunk you dig out from your nostrils.

I loathe excessive positivity

2010-09-03T22:57:00.000-07:00

Mostly because, I can't have it.

Jeannette fun fact #621

I collect way too much junk. When I spring cleaned my room last month, I found bookshop receipts from 2007. I didn't throw them back then and I don't plan on throwing them now because I need to show them to the bookshop uncle!

My purse has more receipts that cash. To the untrained eye it gives the illusion that I have lots of money. Technically that can be translated as I do have the money. Where would I get all the receipts from?

Speaking of llamas. Here's how they sound. Like a beat up truck.
And do not confuse a llama with an alpaca.

All this is weirdly a turn on.
Kidding.

There is no on or off button.

2010-08-19T09:16:00.000-07:00

But right now, I don't need any of it.

Now that I'm starting my 3rd year, becoming a dentist feels more real than before. In about half a year from now I would be treating real patients. Which makes me wonder how would that turn out to be. Will the patient understand what I tell them? Will I screw up and cause an emergency evacuation of the entire polyclinic? Will I kill somebody?

I spent quite a lot of time in dental clinics and hospitals during my recent holiday. I watched how the dentist go about his work effortlessly, how young nurses have no regard of patient's confidentiality(she told my mum that so-and-so is a HIV patient and that another so-and-so just died) and how older medical staff get lost in life's chaos and lose the passion of working.

I used to think that I want to do this because I think I can. But watching the dentist at work made me realize what sort of dentist I'd want to be. One that makes patients happy. He issued a new set of full dentures to this old lady and seeing her happy about it gave satisfaction to me, even though I had nothing to do with it.

But too many things in life kill that sort of excitement and passion that probably only come at the beginning. And I'm not just talking about becoming a dentist.

I'll try to make sure that doesn't happen to me.

occupato

2010-08-08T02:22:00.000-07:00

I tell myself to live in the moment, but I want so many answers now.

But meanwhile...

Laughed more.
Loved much.
Ate more than I should have.
Recycled a car.

Life support.

2010-07-27T04:49:00.000-07:00

I never tell you this enough, but you're a real good friend.

Thank you for taking care of me, and for always making me laugh.

Have a great birthday Andy =)

I see your frustration

2010-07-24T07:34:00.000-07:00

I'd like to fix it.

Here's useless information I got from watching television. May never use it all my life. So might as well now.

To get the best foie gras cross a male muscovy duck with a female pekin.

Kim Kardashian is a very funny bimbo.

You cannot use air pressure to unlock your car door.

Baboons will slap you if you are a deer trying to steal their water.

Nicaraguans serve fermented cheese with maggots still in them.

I am taller than Eva Longoria. By a good 11 cm.

Joyride

2010-07-19T02:27:00.000-07:00

The only pictures I'm taking from now on are the ones of my puppy. Sorry if this kills the lust of uncles who previously visit to satisfy themselves.

I have this love hate relationship with cameras. Unlike the old ones where you need to develop the film to get the photos, I have long stopped the habit of developing photos ever since using digital cameras.

Saves space and all that but it makes memories less tangible. With digital cameras, you can delete unwanted photos. So basically you choose to keep only the perfect moments. But what about the imperfect ones? Suddenly every fleeting moment in life seems easily insignificant.

4 months. with all the toys in the world.

age 4. started to own lipstick.

age 6. after ballet recital.

age 9. one of the many things i miss when away from home.

age 11. Bentan island.

age 13. climbing Mount Kinabalu.

age 15. grandma's birthday.

age 17. last day of form 5.

age 19. when we just started 1st year.

age 21. singapore with the people i love.

But then again, as long as we're always taking pictures =)

The sand. The stars.

2010-07-16T05:17:00.000-07:00

and you smiling at me.

It's good to be back home.

Actually I don't really have anything to blog about lately, because quite frankly I'm in this near comatose state of relaxation.

I'm just looking for a reason to show you my puppy.

While you lay unconscious

2010-07-11T10:33:00.000-07:00

I fixed myself.

Post-its are useful like that. Only like that.

You know how when you were younger your teacher makes you draw your state flag or the Jalur Gemilang? I had a hard time figuring out how to draw that star. Could never get the 14 points right. How do you Penangites draw that tree. You people in Pahang have it easy, white paper and black paint. Or the other way round.

I also pity people with long names or people whose Chinese names are difficult to write. Right now somewhere someplace some poor 6 year old is being forced to copy their names over and over and over and over again. The agony. Don't give your children long names. They'd be angry children.

Not sure how I got to this but I was suppose to blog about the 2 movies I just watched. I've spent 2 lazy afternoons watching Heathers and Dirty Dancing. Lots of shoulder pads and big hair and high waist pants. But lot more meaningful than Twilight.

Look at me.

2010-07-08T09:03:00.000-07:00

My brother went off to USM last week to start his 1st year doing dentistry. I wish I could take some credit for helping you somewhere along the way, but really all I did was made you dress like a girl and forced you to have tea parties with me and Mrs. Morris.

I've lost track of how fast we grow up.

I used to think you were really cute when you were younger, annoying as you got older, and now I just simply miss watching tv with you.

Happy holidays everybody.

It's getting harder

2010-07-02T01:29:00.000-07:00

to keep a straight face.

Hi.

This was the last time I took a decent picture of myself.
Decent pictures of your recent self are always important. For obituaries and stuff like that.

That was 3 weeks ago. Now that i'm having my final examinations I've managed to keep a sizable goatee I don't think it's appropriate for children to see. Call me. Winks.

So here's what's been happening:

I have one more paper, I think it's called Pharmacology.

Till then=)

Still your girl.

2010-06-20T08:36:00.000-07:00

My dad and I are a lot the same. We're the quiet ones in the family. Then again that's probably what I tell myself when we don't have much to talk about to each other. Excuses.

He's worked hard. Most of the money goes to me studying here with the hopes that I'd make a good investment. My 2nd year final examinations is in 4 days. Here I am wasting my time on the world wide web.

He took me fishing. Pick wild mushrooms in the oil palm estate. Fly kites. Stayed up with me till 3 in the morning while I finished my homework. Took my report cards. Taught me how to drive. Disapproved of my revealing clothing.

But for all the effort he's put in being the best father possible, he has to watch his only daughter grow up from a distance, most of the time. Because life screws with you like that every now and then.

Looking forward to taking care of you dad. Happy Father's Day.

Yeah I'll try to remember that.

2010-06-10T10:08:00.000-07:00

To wear scrubs

2010-06-02T02:53:00.000-07:00

I'm going to be occupied for a while.
Lady Gaga wants me on her next music video and Prince William wants to have lunch with me.

This Jeannette ah, she thinks she can fool her 12.5 readers.

But seriously, my final examinations are in less than 3 weeks, and I want to do well enough to get decent grades.

Then again, out of my 12.5 readers, at least 5 of them are my classmates. They won't have time to read the stuff I put here. So announcing to the world about this doesn't really do anything except take up space.

On a totally unrelated note, I was studying while listening to the radio, shuffling between 5 radio stations and within an hour, I heard Justin Bieber twice.
And how is it that when I shuffle through all the stations, they play the same songs at about the same time, and they ALL go on commercial at the same time? (except for traxx fm. that's why traxx fm still rocks)

There's also this message by Adam Lambert on Hitz.fm in which he says that after American Idol, his life took a change by 360 degrees. So follow your dreams and what not...

360 degrees later makes you exactly where you were before, buddy.

What would you hope for me to say?

2010-05-30T03:32:00.000-07:00

Fly trivia. (because right now all that comes to mind are the stack of lecture notes I have to slowly burnish into my neurons, the image of Jake Gyllenhaal's intense unshaven medieval macho-ism, and the ridiculous number of flies that have come to invade the campus for its annual tour)

TRUE flies have only one pair of wings, compared to other flies (dragonflies, butterflies, fireflies...)

Because of the various torsions of their genitalia, flies have more abilities to reproduce at more efficient rates than other insects. If you are an AIMST-er, THIS EXPLAINS IT ALL.

They also have what is called compound vision, which means they have a larger view angle and can react quicker to movements.

But it's funny how they did not see this coming.

Black and white.

2010-05-27T11:17:00.000-07:00

I reckon it's sometimes better this way.

Because right now I still can see the the colour of your hair.
The tie you wore for your convocation.
The colour of your skin under the sun. Or when you laugh for too long.
The three kinds of blue on your bedsheet. Your chair.
The shade of brownish green shorts you wore when we said our goodbyes.

We're not choked up

2010-05-22T11:39:00.000-07:00

But we're not okay.

In the movies, when a hero tells the heroin that a part of him died the day she left him, you'd say it's a cliche.

Not when it happens to you.

I'm not sure where this entry is heading to, I never do half the time. Mostly because some of the things I write about are hormone-driven shit.

My estrogen and progesterone got me eating a lot lately, and I've been telling all my friends of my legendary weight gain. I gained 4 kgs in about a week. Impressive, no?
Timothy got offended because he's been trying to gain weight for 11 years.

I think the menstrual cycle also clouds my judgment at times.
Great, now I can't become Prime Minister. Because if I get pissed every now and then I will deploy a troupe to Papua New Guinea and terrorize them. Just for kicks.

I'm sorry but that was on purpose.

2010-05-17T08:14:00.001-07:00

Sometimes I wonder if I will ever find anyone in compromising positions behind this door. The most questionable thing I've seen behind unopened doors like these are cats. Mother and new born kitties, again. (AIMST inside joke. The cats here replicate faster than cockroaches)

This door also has a lock. outside. I'm not sure how that works but I guess if you would like to trap somebody this would be an epic failure. Unless of course the person you're trapping is mute and does not posses the capability to knock. No offense to the disabled.

I use this pretty often and thank you monkey god I'm still alive.
Because really you have to consider what dances around the spouts of the dispensers.

Did you know one unspayed female cat and her offsprings can produce 420,000 cats in 7 years?

Oh shit.

Noisy teeth!

2010-05-13T19:31:00.000-07:00

Sounds funnier in my head than it actually is.
Excuse me if this doesn't humour you. Aku nerd.

Being a dental student makes me see things I've never seen before.

I was talking to someone the other day and I noticed that the person had bleeding gums and a lot of calculus. I got so distracted I wasn't even paying attention to what that person was saying. Then I just blurted out, have you tried visiting the dental hospital in AIMST? They do treatment for free!

And that wasn't the first time. Ugh =.=

I mean people are talking to you for the first time and that's what you point out right away?

Well that's smooth.

Scattered. Recollect. Scattered again.

2010-05-10T08:28:00.000-07:00

Spending my weekend in Taiping was just the thing I needed.

It's the only place you can eat 3 times for breakfast.

The place where you have to pre order fried chicken from a road side stall. By 45 minutes.

Taiping has the best kacang tumbuk. Seriously. It got my non nut loving friend Peta to eat them. THAT good.

It's also the place to take pretty wedding photos.

Not to mention a place with funny signboards.

Thanks Hugo=)

I'm gonna grow old to look just like you.

2010-05-07T08:37:00.000-07:00

When I was younger I told myself I'd not raise my future children the way you did.
That probably wouldn't be a really good idea. Nobody wants sub basement scums for children.

I now get it. Why you do the things you do. Because if you hadn't Justin and I wouldn't be where we are. We're not successful people just yet, but I think we're on our way.

I miss your nasi lemak. The kuihs. The pulut hitam. The pong teh. The char siew pau.

You amuse me more than you know. You sing off tune. You flare your nostrils when you taste food. You don't understand facebook. You think you know what we're saying in Chinese when you actually might not. You allow Justin and I to make fun of you. We think it's cute.

I was always Pn.Wong or Madam Lee's daughter in school. That surprisingly never gave me a hard time. I kind of enjoyed it, because most of the teachers never messed with me.

Confession. When I was younger I played with your make up and accessories while you were still away at work.

Happy Mother's Day mum. You read my blog I know, that's how you keep track of how much free time I have.

I love you lots.

Occasionally, I see you at dinner.

2010-05-05T02:49:00.002-07:00

Glance. Walk. Pretend.

clearly, I need a life.

Then again, I do enjoy my university life here.
Here are some of the things here that humour me.

By now most of us can forge each others signature to fill up the attendance sheet for subjects like moral studies and sociology. Bunch of cons.

If anything we should always bring entertainment wherever we go. iPhone, poker cards, magazines.

Textbooks by English authors that have a good sense of humour. I've posted several photos before this so I shall not show you anymore out of fear that you will convulse in agony over the lameness of it all.

Read the last point.
Poor Vidarabine, kena shun.

AIMST rocks.

and May makes it 7.

2010-05-03T08:41:00.000-07:00

Maybe I'm confused.
Maybe it still hurts.
Maybe I'm tired.

But whatever keeps me happy.

Things I don't really get part 2

2010-04-30T22:44:00.000-07:00

Facebook Groups. Sure join the real ones that make sense like SM St. Paul, Beaufort or I Love Britney Spears. But here's a list of groups that make me want to extract all my 30 teeth and high speed drill my eyes.

adenosine triphosphate (ATP)
KaMi MaSih SinGlE
What day is it? Tuesday. WTF! I thought it was Thursday!
It's not my fault I'm hot
Singles and scandalz :)
log in facebook hari-hari dapat RM100
I love toilet paper!

More on facebook, do you have this rule that you don't add aunts or uncles or teachers or your pastor? I sort of do that selectively. You don't add them as friends out of fear that they will find out that you're a cross dresser or you're actually studying medicine instead of dentistry.

Here's this other theory I have. One about relationship status. You reveal you're single because:

You're open about letting people know where you stand.
You're desperate.
You're a player so you're perpetually single.

But in all fairness I do love facebook.

I enjoy reading smart and funny comments, stalking ex-boyfriends and finding old schoolmates to see how they've turned out to be and to compare if I'm better off than them now.
And you'd be lying to yourself if you said you'd never do the last one.

Things I don't really get

2010-04-26T08:40:00.000-07:00

Why are we so obsessed with making the biggest of everything? And to top it all off with a Malaysian touch, we HAVE to make it food.

I took this picture last year in Jonker Street in Melaka. Biggest Pineapple tart. Yay. (The tarts are delicious though=.=)

Then there's the giant pizza the shape of Peninsular Malaysia. Made by Carrefour Seberang Jaya.
And the tallest fruit tower at Tanjung Aru, Kota Kinabalu.

And today I read about the biggest nasi lemak measuring 1.82m by 1.82m. I tried googling a picture of it so here's the damn thing.

I'm not sure but I don't think these count as real achievements. Sure they look cool but. but. but.

Why can't we come up with WAY WAY cooler world records? Like... a vaccine for Dengue?

Oh wait. We did =)

It's like I swallowed lead.

2010-04-24T07:11:00.000-07:00

I borrowed this red spot book for an extra day just to show you this. Read the 1st paragraph of each photo.

I know I'm lame, but I take pleasure in making fun of British humour. Very seriously.

Who said periodontology isn't fun?

When the lights burn out

2010-04-23T13:04:00.000-07:00

everything else does too.

What should I do with my dentures?

2010-04-21T08:36:00.000-07:00

This was the equivalent of Facebook back when I was 7.
Then there's also this little pod of seeds that pop when you throw the pod into water.

Before I left for the sports complex today I saw this cat. When I get got back, she wasn't there anymore, and so was the junk food. And so was the junk food. AND SO WAS THE JUNK FOOD.

***

The ADSAlympics (ADSA stands for AIMST Dental Students Association) just ended and in many ways we've managed to outdo ourselves. We won bowling, basketball, table tennis and futsal. We've also learned that:

Sujin has tungsten carbide legs. that girl never gets tired.
Xin Le is secretly a ninja. Dodge so many balls.
Steven can run. can run. CAN RUN.
Jasmine you diam diam rupanya you play badminton so well.

We've also managed to come up with cheers like:

That's the way aha aha, I like it aha aha!
Give it to me baby! aha aha!
Mac Khoo Mac Khoo kawanku! Mari kita ikut Mac Khoo! Syoknya syoknya ada Mac Khoo!

So to all my year 2 batchmates, you were awesome. Thank you for the time and effort, for taking all the hits, and thank you for sticking together =)

We're actually, pretty good.

Footwear Fetish.

2010-04-17T05:53:00.001-07:00

They say you can tell a lot by looking at a person's shoes.

Yah another reason for people to be even more judgmental. Don't trust her she's a sneaky little brown noser with a hidden agenda and I know that because she wears cream coloured flats!

I know parents who buy shoes that are few sizes bigger for their children so that when they grow bigger they wouldn't have to get new shoes for them.

Once I wore this pair of pretty looking slip ons and as I was walking in the lobby of a hotel, the sole came off and slid across the lobby. I didn't pick it up and just kept walking. no. limping like nothing happened.

I wonder if the uncles sitting in coffee shops reading newspapers who wear Bata slippers are actually rich. Because really they may look ordinary like that, but when they lift up their hand to flip the paper he's got a big shiny rolex.

By the way do you know what Bata stands for? buy and throw away. Apparently this was a joke that EVERYBODY in the world knew but me till about a year ago. ha. So when I cleverly attempted this joke on my friend because I thought it was funny and so my friend would think I'm funny, it backfired.

Eh don't make fun of Bata okay. They have a Facebook account.

Here comes

2010-04-14T09:56:00.000-07:00

the best week of the entire dental academic year.

Okay I'm so over Disney for now.

I'm on a Disney roll here

2010-04-09T04:25:00.000-07:00

so do not interrupt my flow.

Really I think Disney gets to me like my menstrual cycle.

My mum makes better coleslaw than KFC. When my mum sees this she'll be doing the 'brush the dirt off your shoulder' move.

Here's Bare Necessities from The Jungle Book.

Justin I ransacked your table.

2010-04-08T01:07:00.000-07:00

Nuclear Hurrican is my newest entertainment. It's one of those yoyos you can do weird stunts with. There's the swing or Eiffel Tower or some shit like that. Aren't you just so freakin jealous you don't have one.

This recorder was mine back in primary school. Then it became Justin's. I will wash it then I'll play Flight of the Bumblebee for you people.

And then there's this very kuno zaman purba camera. 35mm focus wei. Oh yeah we're cool like that.

I'm not sure how we got around to having so much junk lying around the house. Like this measuring tape that comes out of a fish. A FISH! Imagine construction workers having one of these dangling on their utility belt.
I have my stash somewhere in the house, but showing them would take several hundred blog entries. So yeah, skip.

By the way I turned on to Disney Channel yesterday. I can't keep up with anything in there anymore!
That's Prince Eric from The Little Mermaid on my phone. Terima kasih Aimee and Peta.

Being 21 doesn't make me love Disney less. Here's something to show my appreciation to the Gods of Disney.

Long live Disney.

Things I did before I turned 21

2010-04-06T10:23:00.000-07:00

Nothing revolutionary, but here goes.

Played futsal.

Contracted lice from my Indonesian maid.

Drove from KL to Penang, and from Sarawak to Sabah.

Ate a frog (I got conned)

Learned to play the guitar and the organ.

Received the 'murid contoh' award back in primary school.

Got my two lower wisdom teeth surgically removed.

Got to be Cinderella and Sleeping Beauty in 2 seperate plays.

Watched a hen lay eggs.

Watched a bird build it's nest.

Ate cocoa out of a cocoa pod.

Managed to get old uncles to check me out.

Swam with a shark(okay baby shark but it counts!)

Managed to get real close to The Alleycats. Seriously they literally walked in front of me.

By the way I've decided to move to Johor Bahru/Singapore because:
a) the food is delish
b) the 7 eleven cashier is VERY cute
c) clothes are pretty and cheap

Thanks Ron for being a really good tour guide. And thanks Andy, Jac and Peta for the good times=)

April Fail.

2010-03-31T20:14:00.000-07:00

The exams have been a real bummer for most of us. It's not over yet though but here I am blogging because I'm very deprived. Jeannette you fail lah cannot live without the internet for a day.

This thing has never worked to begin with. It doesn't really have that good of a self esteem for itself either. Some days the word bE_1 appears. Not sure what that means.

If I must accept the terms why ask?

I find songs like this and this to be quite a failure too. The melody of the song is catchy and upbeat but the lyrics are depressing. So you wanna bob your head to the song but you have to jiwang bob to it-.-

Here's another thing that I cannot do. Cheerleader, fail.

Distract me, please.

2010-03-30T20:58:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Peta.
Here's a picture to remind you that we were once 18.
And that you have a longer tongue than I do.

Facebook is magical I tell you. She can now determine if I'm happy or not. I call FB a 'she' because like girls, FB has the ability to spread rumors and gossip and scandalous updates and can be very judgmental. Apparently I'm the 7th most happiest person out of about 400 other people. Wah if I'm number 7, number 15 must feel suicidal now.

On a totally unrelated note, I woke up thinking not about what I should study for tomorrow's Pharmacology exam.
Instead I thought about how many times I've accidentally swallowed ants without knowing. You know, like maybe there's an ant in my choc chip cookie. Or when I drink my water without looking at it properly.
Things like that happen okay, does not make me sound weird or anything right?

You forgot

2010-03-20T02:14:00.000-07:00

and so I will too.

Somehow this reads "delivery room" in English to me.
I don't know if any of my Form 4 classmates remember but once we had to copy something on the board during math class, and after a while our math teacher asked "kamu sudah habis bersalin?" Laugh people, laugh.

Bilik persalinan/kandang. Thank you Dai Shan for graciously allowing yourself to portray a horse while Peta tried on some Tesco overalls.

Lan, any truth in this?
The pandai memujuk part sounds like you.

The leg on the left is mine, and the one on the right is my new boyfriend's waxed leg. He was trying on shoes from a tall girl with big feet.

Yah, who buys that.

But yeah that's what you get for being a little taller than the average girl. Man feet. Which I don't mind really, because being taller has it's advantages too.

It's probably easier to spot me in a crowded Tesco. To ward off guys. To walk to class that has already started. To get stuff from the top shelf without breaking a sweat. To main kaki under the table with someone who's 5 seats away from you.

Relapse

2010-03-14T00:16:00.000-08:00

Let's play a game of charades.

My mind is a...?

Clutter.

Aimee look, this is...?

Ridiculous. Like every other FB group.

Not sure where I'm getting to with this.

I was in the toilet cubicle yesterday when I started tearing up. Which became a silent cry by the time I flushed. Then I headed to the shower to wash it all off. That was the longest I've cried, also the first time, since January.

Meet Andy. One of the many people I can count on to always make me LOL. Sayang you lots.

Going out with other guys and stalking good looking 18 year olds may have been fun while it lasted.

But why have I yet to delete any of your text messages? I tell people I still wear this chain because I just think it's pretty, but really why am I wearing it?

Tim the next time I see you we're taking a proper picture.

Why am I preserving something we both know is not there anymore?

I wish I knew what to say

2010-03-11T23:56:00.000-08:00

Doesn't matter anymore. Can't turn back time.

Sorry dentistry junior(think it was Alvis) I wasn't stalking you with my camera. Just testing it out.

Joanne said when she was a kid she liked pretending she was a secretary, making coffee for her boss and doing all the things that secretaries do, except skanking up the boss after office hours.

But Dai Shan's story of her pretending to be a flower and sitting still for hours has got to be the silliest thing I've ever heard.

I don't know if Justin remembers this, but there was a point in my childhood days when I wanted to become a gynecologist. So I made him lie down so I can do an ultrasound and tell him it's a boy.
I'm sorry brother that was stupid.

In denial.

2010-03-08T20:58:00.000-08:00

I was reading my Social and Behavioral Science notes on Health in Hindu, Chinese and Muslim communities today. Here's something to show you how incredibly predictable we are and that this subject is not that crappy after all.

"The use of leftover, shared antibiotics and over-the-counter purchase of antibiotics by parents are common situations in the Chinese community. They think that their children suffer form the same illnesses judging by the similar symptoms, so they would give them the shared antibiotics and only bring them to the doctor if there is no improvement".

My family is guilty of this.

Kelvin looks so cheeky here.

Here's another something for your reading pleasure. Taken from Pickard's Manual of Operative Dentistry. Read lines 7 to 8.

Okay it's pretty obvious I don't have much of a life lately, posting up of pictures of what I read.

But so are people who take 9 million pictures of themselves and upload them on Facebook. Title of their album, Me.

Me!

Me~

Trip to New Zealand! (you got conned)

Me, myself and I

Me oh~

Yes we get it it's you. And that this guy, that girl and 75 others like your album.

In the news today...

2010-03-07T06:22:00.000-08:00

The government is planning on setting up some sort of day care center for old folks so people can drop their parents or grandparents off before they go to work and pick them up after office hours. Cool.
Isn't it funny that you probably started out that way early in life, you know as a kid who gets sent off to babysitters, then when you get real old you end up getting the same thing?

I see this question a lot but never bothered to find out. Back when I was younger I thought they looked like walking bar codes. So if this question bothers you, here.

This was something I read some time back from Removable Partial Dentures by Nicholas Jepson. I tell you ah these British people=.= Try reading lines 4 to 5.

The current running joke in my room is that now we've uncovered the secret passages to China and New York, depending on which tile you step and fall into.
Dai Shan looks like one of those Fantastic 4 characters whose forearm is so strong tiles break off instantly. Happy 21st birthday love.

How I Met You.

2010-03-04T00:59:00.000-08:00

The students who are taking their Foundation course in AIMST are currently sitting for their finals. Which got me reminiscing.

Back then I never really knew what to wear in university. According to the rules and regulation we have to dress in formal attire. Aiyah future foundation students, screw the dress code.
This is what we wore most of the time:

Our favorite subject was English. Because we got to do stupid sketches. The sign that I'm holding may or may not be true.

This is Leonard. He slept through almost every class but still got A's. I still don't know how you sleep like this. God I miss you.

There were days we had our own dresscode:

We took part in a musical production. Uhh... I stole these pictures from the Beta Server guy.
ooo spot Dr. Brindha!

There was prom and Masquerade night. In masquerade night Ron dressed up as a drag queen. He won masquerade queen while Deepa dressed up as a mime and won masquerade king. Picture of Ron not available. If it was it would have been censored in various parts so no point posting up.

Good times, good times.

The next time we saw each other, some of us lost our baby fat. Some eloped.
But most us came back to spend another 5 years to finish what we started. (yerh why this line so cheesy)

You're right.

2010-02-28T07:23:00.000-08:00

I'm not that clueless.

But it doesn't mean I know what I should do.

I have acute rhinitis.

2010-02-26T20:51:00.000-08:00

Doesn't the common cold sound much more lethal when phrased in medical terms?

In all my 20 years of life, I've taken care of many living things. The most complex living thing I had to take care of was a cactus, and the most simple living thing to take care of is my brother.

The cactus was a gift from D. I figured a cactus wouldn't be difficult to handle, but it died in a week due to over hydration. Needless to say from then on he never trusted me with his dogs.

So when Xin Le asked me to take care of her pitcher plant, I was determined to get it right. Shan posted an entry on tips for gardening. He even had specific tips for pitcher plants so yay!

Didn't know Firefox had a sense of humour. I find their statement on top quite funny!

Entertainment of the week: How I Met Your Mother. Gotta love Neil Patrick Harris, he's hilarious. If there's one thing that annoys is me how they are always at the bar. I mean really your up to season 5 and none of the characters have died of liver failure? (Actually I wouldn't know I never watched the previous 4 seasons...)

Happy Birthday Joanne.
We played musical chairs when we celebrated her birthday.
When was the last time you played a childhood game?

Stasis.

2010-02-23T00:52:00.000-08:00

As you grow up, things change. They get harder, or they may not. People come and go. Some stick around, some you can't get rid off, some you can't help but lose.

Justin and I used to hate each other so much. We'd be up each other's nostrils most of the time. Now all I wish for is that our holidays would synchronize better. I secretly wish that we'd have enough time to join The Amazing Race.

The world record for the thinnest slice of watermelon goes to AIMST.

Pada tahun baru ini, prinsip-prinsip angin dan air menyatakan bahawa:

So let's start listing out the possibilities here.

A red Ferrari drives up from Johor to Sungai Petani and the driver whose name is Lim Sum Mer comes looking for me.
A red horse comes up to me and says "Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?" in a Southern American English accent.
On a beautiful summer's day, a bloodied horse limps to the dental hospital (my compass tells me the AIMST dental hospital is located south) and seeks dental treatment from me?

Tim got me some very awesome MnM's. With my name on them!!!

Found someone on Youtube today. Yay! Asians with raspy voice susah to cari you know.

Clement and Peta, my interpretation of RB.

Go away.

2010-02-20T10:01:00.000-08:00

What are you doing today?

We used to spend so much time together. Now we can't even hold a 2 minute conversation.

Do you think of me?

Do you think of me when you're out there with that cheap girl you picked up? Does she make you feel more of a man?

It's bad enough I don't talk to you much. Now I can't forgive you.

Now I can't even look at your face and not feel disgusted.

I love distractions.

2010-02-18T06:17:00.000-08:00

Meet Benji. A very small dog, small enough to go under the altar for prayers undetected. He drank half a cup of 'God' water from the altar.
He could use some orthodontic treatment.

Here's what makes you Malaysian. Or just Chinese, maybe.

We all have a meal together. We gobble up everything that's on the table. EXCEPT for one piece of food on each plate. All of a sudden we know how to be shy and polite and say things like 'Oh it's okay you take the last piece...' when you know you've been eyeing that last piece of char siew the entire time.

I like this photo because someone's lower limbs were left lying on the road

Notice how our accent can suddenly change from Manglish to a very tak menjadi American/British English? It only happens when we're talking to tourists. They ask for directions and clearly we have no clue but we'll just pretend anyway.

What else makes us Malaysian?

Did you know that a duck's penis is spiral in shape? That's probably how the term 'screw' came from. I know this because this is what brothers are for. They tell you nonsense.

Good morning.

2010-02-12T12:31:00.000-08:00

As I post this entry, I know that Shanmugam and Aimee are not asleep. Because Shan just posted a new entry, and Aimee just commented on it. The time now is 5 a.m.
Apalah kamu buat pada masa-masa siang ini?

For Valentine's Day this year, I'll be celebrating Chinese New Year.

It actually feels pretty good to have no strings attached now. I can publicly announce my obsession for:

But if there's anything that I learned from loving someone is that I'd go out of my way for him, and vice versa.

They don't have to involve jumping off a cliff without a parachute and distorting your body parts to form the letters 'I <3 U' while singing your couple theme song and then landing on your two feet after doing a triple back flip clockwise and anti-clockwise.

Like taking a 5 hour bus ride to get your girl, just to accompany her on another 5 hour bus ride back from where you came, in the span of half a day.

Or go to the library to just spend time studying with her, when you probably wouldn't even have entered the place throughout your entire university life.

And to spend a whole year to plan the perfect birthday.

Or maybe screw your biological clock over just to hang out with him longer.

Me cooking for you made you happy. Whether or not it tasted good didn't matter.

You would just say thank you.

I didn't see this coming.

2010-02-10T05:19:00.000-08:00

I was stuck in the toilet seat for about 20 minutes.
Constipation is far worse than being in labour I can promise you that.

Why am I discussing my bowel movements? Or the lack of it.

OXIDE Pang. Shan note this new cool name for babies.

I realize that when I take a dump, I monologue.
To resolve my inner conflicts while contracting and relaxing my anal sphincters may not be the most ideal way I would say, but I got no time!
When I get out of the toilet, FACEBOOK awaits!!! =.=

Sometimes I plan my day.
Sometimes I read something.

What nonsense do you do in the toilet?

I watched this movie Milk the other day, not bad at all. It's about a guy named Harvey Milk (played by Sean Penn) who fought for gay rights, subsequently becoming the first openly gay man to be elected into office in America. I was just upset that MY James Franco turned from deliciously gorgeous to blond curly haired hippie feeling up Sean Penn's ass.

Hey deprived Malaysian, here comes...

Now all I need is a stainless steel box and 5 million stamps.

I just never saw it.

2010-02-09T03:35:00.000-08:00

So glad I decided to bring my camera down for dinner today. They were just sitting there!

Although university and MQA subjects bore me, I do take them quite seriously. I attend classes just to sign my attendance and to listen about what the exam format is like.

Once we had to do a dialogue regarding negotiation skills. Raymon, Dai Shan, Peta and I came up with a dialogue that involved a negotiation in a maid agency. Dai Shan was an Indonesian maid and I was a Filipino maid. We even put up accents. Our lecturer didn't seem to mind. He even found it amusing.

Yesterday, in the written exam we had to write a dialogue to negotiate with your staff who has been under performing at work. I think most of us submitted a script taken out of a soap drama. It went a little something like this:

The reason why I've been not performing well in work is because my 16 year old daughter is pregnant and my husband is having an affair...
The truth is I have recently been widowed.
I've been suffering from vaginal pain so I keep taking medical leave.
My husband's in a coma so I have to take care of the family and this is affecting my work.

Who ever that is grading our paper will have a good time.

You make me feel funny

2010-02-05T03:45:00.000-08:00

This made me happy on a Friday night. It's not Justin Bieber=.=

This contest entry box has been here since August 2007. I would know because I've been in AIMST since July 2007 and I submitted my entry form into this box. I'm pretty sure the dateline is up. I'm also pretty sure that if you crack open this box, there will lots of rubbish. Maybe even a cat.dead.59 times over.

A few weeks back Dai Shan and I were talking about how our dental clinics will look like in the future.

Andy's clinic would probably have a Laksa dispenser because life is meaningless and all hope is lost without it.

Dai Shan's clinic would have leopard print wallpapers with Chinese techno music playing in the background. Preferably THIS.

Aimee's clinic would probably have posters of Christian Bale Prof Harcharan Robert Downey Jr. Dev Patel and that guy from glee, Finn.

Jolene just might bling up her working area.

Peta's clinic would play Disney movies forever.

I'd put up pictures of all of us. Lots of them.

That's kinda catchy.

2010-02-03T02:18:00.000-08:00

Last week I was at the ladies department of a shopping outlet. I saw a man old enough to be my father, bobbing his head to My Lips Like Sugar by Flo Rida. Must've sounded catchy to him. Guess there's still hope for today's music.

My dad used to like Superstar by Jamelia so much back in 2006 that it was his ringtone.

My mum's current ringtone is Sweet Escape by Gwen Stefani, because it's loud enough.

Parents this is why you sent me to dental school. Because I can polish dentures well.

This 11 year old kid is cute, his songs are catchy. He also digs older looking Latinos who like to sort out laundry.

This is why I let Dai Shan drag me to SaSa. Because everytime I enter that store there will always be something fascinating and unheard of. To me, at least. Aku jakun. These cookies give you bigger jugs! Faster kiss the ground and say yay.

My university never fails to crack me up with their notices. Here's one I saw in the library.

So here's what I understand from this. The pair of slippers on the left is less decent than the ones on the right, because the pair on the right only exposes 4 toes. The pair on the left exposes ALL 5 toes. Now, now, that's not very decent! tsk tsk tsk.

By the way Kamaljit Singh Jhooti has new songs. Catchy.
I'm not calling him Jay Sean anymore.

Cold tuna sandwich at 2 a.m

2010-01-30T22:02:00.000-08:00

is always good.

6.30 pm on a Wedensday.

I'm a sucker for crazy colours. But half of my wardrobe is filled with black and grey.

Jeannette fun fact #93
I'm a sucker for stickers. But of course I'll bow down to the superiority of The Sticker Monster. =)

If I've made you a card for the past 10 years chances are that card has a sticker. A sticker which I liked a lot but I sayang you more so I stuck one on your card for you.

I'm wondering if I can put stickers on my Pathology lab report. Or on my dummy in simulation lab. They'd probably cut my marks on professional behaviour. RAAR.

I'm not sure why I brought my compass back to the hostel, I have a tendency to bring EVERYTHING here because I insist that I need them all. Moving out of here is gonna be a bitch. But I'll worry about that when I graduate.
Well at least I know that I'm facing the right direction, according to Lilian Too. No kidding I used to read that shit.

I spent quite a bit of time in bus stations these couple of days and oddly enough Dai Shan and I met several old people. They talked about their lives, and you could tell that they had regrets.

One uncle in particular got to know that we're studying in AIMST and he told us he was classmates with one of the directors in AIMST. The uncle praised him, said he used to ask him to finish his homework and gave him 10 cents for it. Then he started comparing himself with the director. One a tanned, worn out bus conductor. The other a successful doctor.

On another bus ride I managed to ask an old lady if she had children. She said she had none. Sure some people can choose to live without a family, but there will always be a difference. There will always be times when she ponders why doesn't she have any children, and what's it like to have them. It'll be worse when you've had the chance but you never got around to it.
Observations of real life experiences tell me that these people will grow old happy on the outside but bitter deep down

because we will always want what we don't have.

Finding Closure.

2010-01-26T11:14:00.000-08:00

Change is good

2010-01-25T02:12:00.000-08:00

I spent half a day in La La central. The place where Ah Bengs and Ah Lian buy their clothes. The place you can get away with fluorescent green hair. Where Chinese Techno music plays, again and again. I have nothing against it really, it's just not what I fancy.

Anyways I was in this shop, and the moment I walked in I saw an elderly couple sitting by the corner, presumably waiting for their La La children to buy their Chinese New Year clothes. Wah back when I was 14, my mum took me to Cheetah or Applemints and bought what SHE thought was appropriate for me. But they always turn out pretty so it's okay. But really if I were a parent I'd want my kid to wear something cheerful looking for CNY.

In my feeble attempt to attain a certain sense of individuality, I dyed my hair, like everyone else.

I was screaming so much I'm not sure the hair stylist will ever cut hair again. God bless his soul, he was patient with me. I mean he could have just stabbed me with his scissors you know?

Surprisingly,

2010-01-24T07:19:00.000-08:00

it is the 2nd day of my 1 week holiday in AIMST and I'm not rotting in a pile of misery biting off my toenails with flies landing on my eyeballs.

Yes the construction of the sentence is wrong, but I wanted the word 'surprisingly' to be my entry title. So yeah I'll just commit the grammatical error.

I found the EXACT SAME organ I had in Wei Sern's grandma's house! Told you it looks like a spaceship switchboard.

All Aimee and Alice had to do was mention Edward Scissorhands and I immediately watched it again that night. I love looking at Edward's reactions when he was first brought out of his castle by Peg. When he was getting a makeover by Peg, when he punctured the water bed, when he tried to wear clothes... Cannot stand lah, very funny.

Then there's The Breakfast Club. It's a 1985 movie about the stories of 5 different students in a detention session. Very funny one-liners. Oh and there's a scene where this girl was drawing the night sky, then she flicks her hair on the paper so that the dandruff falls off to make it look like it's snowing. Good movie, I almost cried leh.

Lepas tu aku tengok Beauty and The Beast. What can I say I'm a hardcore Disney fan. The funny thing is when I watched Disney movies when I was younger I never fully understood the lyrics or the dialogues. When I watch them now, I realize how hilarious the words are! (Marie, the baguettes! Hurry up!)
One fine day Eh-mee, PCG and I should sit together and watch every single good Disney movie. We probably can do that in 3rd year between clinic sessions, in the common room.

If you're a dental student, watch The Tooth Fairy. Spot the HUGE error they made. Obviously the movie makers did not attend Prof. Luke's class on tooth morphology. How the hell does a canine look like a 4 cusped molar with 4 roots ha? They obviously thought us movie goers don't care for detail, but don't screw with a dental student's eye for detail okay*snap snap* =.=
We also had fun guessing the age of the little girl who lost her upper central incisors. Her age was then revealed later in the movie. At least they got that right.

If Jeannette became the ranting narcissistic bimbo.

2010-01-23T01:04:00.000-08:00

Role play. Here we go.

I don't understand why I'm gaining ALL.THIS.WEIGHT! I gained like 0.475 pounds in a year! Can you believe that!!! oh FML. And I didn't even eat much last year, I only licked tofu every 2 days once.

So from now on I'm gonna be on a diet. All I do is drink water. Because I want to weigh 35.8kg again. Ugh I look so disgusting now.

I was on Facebook the other day and my stalker sent me a message. He doesn't have a life you see. Even though I told him to back off he wouldn't because he said I'm his dream girl. Hello, I'm EVRYBODY'S dream girl okay?

Speaking of Facebook, I get these weird notifications saying that I have new relatives and that I should add them on my family tree. Wah, every few days I suddenly have new relatives that I don't know of? What now we reproduce like budding yeast is it.

Even though it's only January I am already broke! I couldn't help myself I just HAD to get the IKEA towels in ALL the colours and matching bathroom slippers. They're just toooooo pretty not to have. Sue me.

UGH sorry I just had to rant. It's just that there are sooo many things that are annoying me.

End of rant.

Revision session

2010-01-15T08:26:00.000-08:00

This was supposed to be an efficient, non time consuming entry, since exams are next week.
But I ended up taking pictures for 30 mintues=.=
All the best to all you dental students.

Hope you like your presents daddy=)

I should be studying

2010-01-13T06:21:00.000-08:00

but remember what I wrote about in one of my previous entries on what will happen in 2010?

Guess what it's happening. Sort of.

I'm reading the most bizarre things in the newspaper lately. The latest being that some people are depressed and suicidal over not being able to experience the alien world of Pandora in real life. Apparently Avatar became a reminder of how ugly the real world is.

I mean I enjoyed the movie, it's really pretty and all. I also enjoyed making fun of the tribal lady who talks like a Jamaican. But having to visit a shrink over Avatar?

Hey what I said was really just me high on crack, I didn't know there were people who really wanted to be Navi.

On a more serious note,

Happy 21st Birthday Clement. As a birthday present I found you a twin in AIMST. =)

Speed dial number four

2010-01-11T07:41:00.000-08:00

I never use you anymore
You're a distant memory
But somehow you still get hold of me.

I shall attempt to rhyme
If I succeed do give me a dime.

Her name is Roxxxy
She's oh-so foxy
Is your birthday coming soon?
I'll get you one so you can give it a shag all night till noon.

Don't speak

2010-01-07T21:03:00.000-08:00

My mind is no longer coherent. I'm not sure if it's due to the coming exams, it could be menopausal.

Once on a road trip across Sabah, I saw a cow sitting at the bus stop. Not next to it or anything, right in it.

Dog food smells like spam. You know, that canned meat? The really expensive dog food can pass off as the sauce for spaghetti bolognaise under proper lighting and all.

There have been recent sightings of goats loitering the premises of AIMST. The current theory is that if there are goats seen, mutton curry will be served the next day.

Colon Carcinoma. With napkin-ring appearance. For your viewing pleasure.

In a few hours it will be your birthday Tim. 4pm to be exact. I took the liberty of converting Malaysian time to Californian time. The things I'd do for a friend. You gotta love me kan =p

I made you a card. If it has not reached you it probably took a detour to Papua New Guinea and to Eygpt later. So do check your mailbox in May.

What will happen in 2010

2010-01-04T05:54:00.000-08:00

I will grow hair so long that they will hire me for Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam III Versi Cina.

Brad Pitt will suffer a major concussion that when he wakes up he'll think I'm Angie and love me more than ever because that concussion gave him a near death experience so now he wants to appreciate everything in life and not take things for granted.

The environment will be so polluted that our skin will start turning blue and we'll have glittery T-zones and we'll grow tails and our dreadlocks can communicate with our cars. So we don't have to worry about losing our car keys.

I will start a fashion trend so great and influential that Alexander McQueen and Christian Lacroix will be out of hope and in despair and they will never see the light of fashion.ever.again.

Entertainment of the day Part 2

2009-12-31T09:04:00.000-08:00

I spent new year's day staring into space

watching the fireworks display that is.

Marilyn Bin Manson HAHAHA =.=

Now I'm 70% deaf so you're gonna have to speak up the next time I see you.

Tell Laura I Love Her by Ray Peterson, one of the MANY oldies I know by heart. Sometimes I'm not even sure I'm 20. Shouldn't I be in love with Akon or Pitbull?

Pfft Pitbull. What kind of shitty name is that anyway.

Entertainment of the day

2009-12-28T07:41:00.000-08:00

Rumpelstilskin was so horrible I just HAD to finish watching it. Believe it or not the first thing I took notice of is Rumpelstilskin's teeth. Why am I not surprised.

My dad and I spent the afternoon pointing out all the unrealistic events of the movie.

In this movie, Rumpelstilskin comes back to life from the 1400's and still wants a baby FYI in the original fairytale he was promised a baby in return of spun gold. So he sets out chasing this woman who has a baby. Obviously woman runs.

Rumpelstiltskin has good motor skills. Either that or a steed from the 1400's has the same working mechanism of a monster truck of the 1990's. He jalan tempang-tempang can drive ha. Can drift somemore. AND all of a sudden he smokes cigars.

Excuse my English today. So datin-cina-in-pasar. Anyways.

Don't be alarmed he's more normal than he really looks.

For the past few days I've been hanging out with my brother. Being true to my cougar self I also asked him to bring some of his cute 18 year old friends Jacob and Ong. Suddenly, being 20 felt like the new 50. gahh.

Current obsession, buttons!

They were hilarious. Their voices have not even matured completely so when they talk you can still hear their voices suddenly go off into a high pitched tone.
And they were very polite. They called me Aunty.

This year.

2009-12-22T05:25:00.000-08:00

Close your eyes
Clear your heart
Let it go.

Look who I found. If I don't wear my glasses, he looks so much like my friend Duncan. Yes I've decided if I can't have you, I'll go on cougar mode=.=

Karishma's last day in AIMST. Jan 09

This year I found the worst and the best of myself.

Valentine's Day, KL. Feb 09

I never knew I could be so judgemental about people I hardly knew. I always saw the worst in them and never remembered what makes them special.

Dai Shan's birthday. March 09

I think I got better at dancing. Probably an STD I got from Peta and Dai Shan =P

ADSAlympic in AIMST. April 09

I understood the need to have friends that I can always count on. Because you don't live in this world alone. Bottling up is no good. All you get are swollen eyes and bad marks for simulation lab assessments.

The day we decided to wear white. May 09

I can edit 110 Pathology slides in 5 minutes. Top that! HAH!

Last day of BDS first year. June 09

My hair grew longer. Slightly.

D's convocation. July 09

My technological skills have improved.

5 hour hike with friends. Aug 09

For the first time in a very long time, I feel more comfortable being myself around people.

Trip to Perlis. Sept 09

This is the year I've gossiped and bitched talked the most. Wasn't really like that before.

Because I always take pictures of you eating. Oct 09

Did the most courageous thing during my teenage life only to end up engulfed in its aftermath.

Hatyai. Nov 09

This is also the year I laughed the most. Cried the most.

My favorite place in AIMST. Dec 09

I got better at Typing Maniac=.=

Your call

2009-12-20T06:39:00.000-08:00

was all I needed to feel better.

Jeannette Wong 1A HAHAHAHA

Timothy I cannot believe that my piece of Pendidikan Seni work SEVEN years ago is currently residing in Wichita, Kansas.

If you ask me now I think it looks like a microscopic view of granuloma.

I remember Cikgu Maulana taught us how to do this. Drip oil-based colour into water then let your paper float on the water so it soaks up all the colour. I thought that was pretty enough but we had to make a collage. Mine was one screwed up cactus. What was yours?

What does it take to come up with a head turner? Apparently it's us.

The 5 of us went for a movie and I was surprised at how much attention we got. People stared at us like we were barking cats with webbed feet walking on our hind legs. Because we were different. Because people like them don't normally hang out with people like us.

But we are a lot the same.

Smile

2009-12-18T02:23:00.000-08:00

when your heart is breaking.

I plan to rob the dental tech lab. For acrylic. Anyone wants in?

If you have not noticed, I recently laid down coloured fabric-like material on my table. 4 colours for RM14. I think it's absurd to spend that amount on something non-living. It's not like the table feels prettier. It won't thank me.

Jeannette fun fact # 613
I have pores the size of China. And the blackheads I culture are just about the population of the country too.

I've sunk real low today. Went on Google and let my fingers type for lame pick up lines. Here's one.

I've got a thirst baby, and you smell like my Gatorade.

HAHA.

I found myself

2009-12-14T04:32:00.000-08:00

tearing up during the simulation lab session this afternoon.

and during Microbiology this morning.

and the night before.

I don't know why.

You say this is for a new start. I don't think I can.

I don't think I can eat our favorite ice-cream alone.

I don't think I can let a day go by without thinking of all the things we did together, and the to-do-list we never got around to finish.

I will never forgive myself for giving you such a hard time, all the time.

And whenever the rare occasion that we do talk on the phone nowadays, I still pause for a while before I hang up, just in case you wanted to say that you love me.
Like you always did.

Underneath this smile

2009-12-07T03:56:00.000-08:00

I am pale. bland. tasteless.

and you shouldn't have to read about my low self esteem and me dwelling in self pity.

I dread being alone. But I shut the entire world out.

I've lived in my own bubble for so long that I got complacent. I don't know how to move on. Didn't think I had to.

In my mind runs every single thought about everything that happens around me. But neither can I swallow them down or throw them out.

All this while I thought I have finally found solid ground.
But what I'm standing on is now sinking in.

Feelings, suppressed.

2009-12-05T06:48:00.000-08:00

It's much easier to fall asleep lately because I've been so busy preparing for Dental Dinner, assignments, studies and helping my brother out with debate. And also this cough I have has been wearing me down.

Sorry classmates the notes that I bring you daily are probably infected. You'd probably want to sterilize them or something.

Jeannette fun fact #123
I used to rare chickens and guinea pigs.

Meet Patches. All it ever did was eat squeal defecate. I bathed him/her once a week and blow dried its fur. I remember telling it to wish me luck on my first day of SPM.

The good thing about having a dad who works close with nature (he's in the agriculture line) is that you will never run out of random animals in a box as a weekend surprise. I loved it. Once he brought me a stray that looked like a retriever puppy. Later on there would be a guinea pig.

When I was younger he had a seaweed business in the middle of the sea. He hired workers to take care of the seaweed, set up a hut for them to rest. It was beautiful.

Every other weekend he'd take us there in his speedboat. I'd swim around in the coral reef. Go fishing. See dolphins I SHIT YOU NOT. Pee in a bottle because dad didn't build a toilet. Got a tan.

I don't remember the names of my brother's collection of Budgerigars. But he circus trained them to fly in a circle and land on his calender. GOOD GOD WE SOUND LIKE FREAKS.

My brother loves animals a little bit too much. Probably loves them more than his own girlfriend. He dropped one of my guinea pigs before, its tooth chipped off.

Guinea pig died the next day, cat took a swing at it.

We will all be alright

2009-12-01T06:43:00.001-08:00

Somehow.

Lately I've been so unmotivated and uninspired that I can't even find the will and strength to floss. I've flossed my teeth since Tamadun Mesopotamia okay, now I broke that sacred chain.
If this goes on I'd probably not wash my hair that often.

So what does it take to find footing once again?

The cavity restoration session I had the other day was surprisingly therapeutic. Half an hour before that I was the scorned woman scowling at people to hand in Microbiology lab reports.

Sitting at the cafeteria talking about how Aimee's dog came about wearing the cone of shame.

Making a birthday card for a friend and anticipating the surprise when he gets it.

Stumbling upon random information. Did you know that the very gorgeous British singer Jay Sean's real name is Kamaljit Singh Jhooti. In all honesty if he stuck to his real name his singing career would so tidak menjadi loh.

Shanmugamlakshmanan

2009-11-29T08:17:00.000-08:00

got me reminiscing.